Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Today....
So it's been a bit frustrating dealing with my computer today. I've lost all my favorites...and don't even know where to begin to find some of them. When I pay my bills tomorrow, I'm going to have to look up every single website again. I also am having trouble with things loading...if it's from a different website (like my slideshow) it won't show up. I'm going to have to have Cole play with the settings tonight, since I can't figure out what to change to make things show up. I was on call at work monday, and called off last night...and didn't have to work either night. It couldn't have come at a better time...it gives me a full week off, and I needed the break. I've been so tired, and I'm going into another rough stretch. I've also been able to catch up on stuff around the house, and spend some time with my kids. Now I'm going to play with my beading stuff this afternoon...I have a few babies I need to make "pretties" for.
Mother's Day
Happy Late Mother's Day to everyone! I had a good day, and I hope everyone else did as well. I couldn't sleep in, due to early church, but Cole did most of the getting the kids ready so I didn't have to deal with it, or any of the issues that arose that morning. Church was nice, the boys sang in Sacrament, and both of them looked right at me the whole time. It was really sweet.
We went and saw our moms...both of them liked their gifts. We shared a yummy dinner with my family, and hung out for awhile.
When we came home, the kids finally had time to give me their gifts. Kyle made me peach scented soap at school, Alec made me a bookmark, and Talia made me a dish towel with her handprints on it. Cole, in collusion with the kids, gave me a card and a trip to the dayspa. There's a really amazing exfoliating/moisturizing treatment I want to go have done....
During the evening, I relaxed with a book, and Cole put up our gazebo. It was a really nice day, and I know I am a very lucky woman.
We went and saw our moms...both of them liked their gifts. We shared a yummy dinner with my family, and hung out for awhile.
When we came home, the kids finally had time to give me their gifts. Kyle made me peach scented soap at school, Alec made me a bookmark, and Talia made me a dish towel with her handprints on it. Cole, in collusion with the kids, gave me a card and a trip to the dayspa. There's a really amazing exfoliating/moisturizing treatment I want to go have done....
During the evening, I relaxed with a book, and Cole put up our gazebo. It was a really nice day, and I know I am a very lucky woman.
Lagoon
Cole's been bugging me for Lagoon Season Passes for a couple of years. We had them the year Alec was born, and Cole took Kyle quite a bit while I stayed home with baby Alec. He really enjoyed it, and now that the kids are older (and thrill seekers like their mom) he wanted season passes again. I was hesitant...it's a lot of money. However, I gave in, and I'm so glad I did.
We knew from the commercials that Lagoon is currently open on weekends. In previous years, this has included Friday nights. So, last Friday night, we went down to get our passes. We were able to get our passes, but the kids were VERY disappointed to learn that they were not open yet...only Saturday and Sunday. So, we decided to sacrifice the yard stuff we needed to get done, and go down Saturday afternoon.
So, after naps, we picked up Subway's and headed down to Lagoon. We had a great time, partly because we knew we only had to stay as long as we felt like it. We ended up staying about 5 hours. The lines weren't too long, we rode a bunch of stuff, and Cole and I traded off staying with Talia in the "kiddie" area, and taking the boys on more grownup rides. We're so excited that Alec is tall enough to ride everything...and so is he. He loves the fast coasters especially.
Waiting in line for the "Jumping Dragon"...something our whole family can ride....
Our boys...
Talia and I...when you're the one behind the camera, you're lucky to get any pics of yourself!
Talia shows some trepidation upon riding the Terror Ride...
Cole got a cute video of her wanting to go find mommy after it was done, but I accidentally deleted it (dang it)...
Talia loved the "dragon fly", the kids version of the swings...
We haven't been to Lagoon in a really long time...I was really impressed with all the upgrading they've done. They've redone most of the kids rides, improving them all, and making it so mom and dad can go with them. They're pretty fun too...Cole and the kids will spend a lot of the time that I'm working and my parent's aren't home at the pool going to Lagoon for a few hours here and there.
We knew from the commercials that Lagoon is currently open on weekends. In previous years, this has included Friday nights. So, last Friday night, we went down to get our passes. We were able to get our passes, but the kids were VERY disappointed to learn that they were not open yet...only Saturday and Sunday. So, we decided to sacrifice the yard stuff we needed to get done, and go down Saturday afternoon.
So, after naps, we picked up Subway's and headed down to Lagoon. We had a great time, partly because we knew we only had to stay as long as we felt like it. We ended up staying about 5 hours. The lines weren't too long, we rode a bunch of stuff, and Cole and I traded off staying with Talia in the "kiddie" area, and taking the boys on more grownup rides. We're so excited that Alec is tall enough to ride everything...and so is he. He loves the fast coasters especially.
Waiting in line for the "Jumping Dragon"...something our whole family can ride....
Our boys...
Talia and I...when you're the one behind the camera, you're lucky to get any pics of yourself!
Talia shows some trepidation upon riding the Terror Ride...
Cole got a cute video of her wanting to go find mommy after it was done, but I accidentally deleted it (dang it)...
Talia loved the "dragon fly", the kids version of the swings...
We haven't been to Lagoon in a really long time...I was really impressed with all the upgrading they've done. They've redone most of the kids rides, improving them all, and making it so mom and dad can go with them. They're pretty fun too...Cole and the kids will spend a lot of the time that I'm working and my parent's aren't home at the pool going to Lagoon for a few hours here and there.
Computer Crashes, and THANK YOU!!!
First of all THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU for all your supportive and loving comments!!! Parenting is definitely the hardest thing I've ever done, and I sometimes look at all of you wonderful moms I know, and feel like I come up short. I know that we all have trials with our children, and I feel blessed that Alec is mine. Things actually have been much better with him since that day...we had a talk, about why it's important to keep our bodies clean, inside and out, and that the wastes from inside our body need to come out. Cole and I promised him that if he was honest with us when he had an accident, we wouldn't get mad. Really, it's the lying and sneaking that anger me, not the accidents themselves. I understand that he has a fear, bordering on a phobia. We're going to be getting him into the pediatrician to see if we need to take any more steps....
As for the computer, it completely crashed on me last Thursday night. It was working, I walked away from it, I came back, shut it down, and when I tried to reboot it later, nothing but blue screen. Into PC Laptops it went...and now it's working fine, except all my "favorites" are gone...it's going to be a huge pain for me to visit every website that I have bookmarked, and re favorite them. However, I'm very, very grateful that it wasn't a more serious problem, it only cost me $80 to fix, and I didn't lose any of the files that I have on my computer. So, through the course of the next couple of days, I'll be rebuilding. Stay tuned.....
As for the computer, it completely crashed on me last Thursday night. It was working, I walked away from it, I came back, shut it down, and when I tried to reboot it later, nothing but blue screen. Into PC Laptops it went...and now it's working fine, except all my "favorites" are gone...it's going to be a huge pain for me to visit every website that I have bookmarked, and re favorite them. However, I'm very, very grateful that it wasn't a more serious problem, it only cost me $80 to fix, and I didn't lose any of the files that I have on my computer. So, through the course of the next couple of days, I'll be rebuilding. Stay tuned.....
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Confessions of a Terrible Mother
Alec.
I have come to accept in my life that Alec was sent to me to be the child that tries me to my ultimate limits. He has an ability to push my buttons like neither of my other kids do. Alec has been a challenge from the time I was 25 weeks pregnant with him...It was the night before Cole was due to leave for Seattle, on his very first business trip for his new job. I had been sick all day, and preterm labor started. We spent 6 hours in the hospital getting labor stopped. The remainder of my pregnancy was characterized by contractions whenever I worked, and having preterm labor stopped 2 more times before he came early at 36 5/7 weeks. My labor with him was twice as long as with Kyle, and he didn't tolerate any of it. They were getting me ready for an emergency c-section when he decided to turn his head straight so he could be born. His cord was wrapped twice tightly around his neck. I feel very lucky that he didn't die either during the process, or because we waited too long to deliver him.
He is a very literal child, everything is black and white, with no shades of gray. This is challenging. However, he is also a very sweet, loving child, highly intelligent, and I feel blessed to have him as my son.
However, this morning ended terrible for both of us.....
It started out ok. I worked last night, but both boys got up and ready with no problems. As we were headed out the door, the boys to school, me getting Talia in the car to take her to daycare, Kyle mentioned that Alec's pants smelled like urine. Sure enough, they were damp and smelled terrible. They were the ones he wore yesterday, so I asked him if he wet his pants yesterday(you have to remember, here, that Alec is afraid of all toilets that are not the ones in our house). He told me no. The lie set me off...we've been trying to get through to both boys that we're always more angry when you lie than when you tell the truth. I started yelling, and by the time he was leaving, he was crying, I was crying...I did hug him goodbye, and told him I was sorry to be so angry, but I feel like the worst mother in the world. He had a bad day at school, however, and it's probably all my fault. I am at my wits end with him right now. He has always responded well to concrete instructions, but he's not listening AT ALL right now. That pushes some pretty big buttons with me. I don't know what to do. I need to come up with some way of dealing with him right now, because I'm so very, very tired of yelling.
This is my dose of reality for the day. I just needed to get it out. Tomorrow will be better.
I have come to accept in my life that Alec was sent to me to be the child that tries me to my ultimate limits. He has an ability to push my buttons like neither of my other kids do. Alec has been a challenge from the time I was 25 weeks pregnant with him...It was the night before Cole was due to leave for Seattle, on his very first business trip for his new job. I had been sick all day, and preterm labor started. We spent 6 hours in the hospital getting labor stopped. The remainder of my pregnancy was characterized by contractions whenever I worked, and having preterm labor stopped 2 more times before he came early at 36 5/7 weeks. My labor with him was twice as long as with Kyle, and he didn't tolerate any of it. They were getting me ready for an emergency c-section when he decided to turn his head straight so he could be born. His cord was wrapped twice tightly around his neck. I feel very lucky that he didn't die either during the process, or because we waited too long to deliver him.
He is a very literal child, everything is black and white, with no shades of gray. This is challenging. However, he is also a very sweet, loving child, highly intelligent, and I feel blessed to have him as my son.
However, this morning ended terrible for both of us.....
It started out ok. I worked last night, but both boys got up and ready with no problems. As we were headed out the door, the boys to school, me getting Talia in the car to take her to daycare, Kyle mentioned that Alec's pants smelled like urine. Sure enough, they were damp and smelled terrible. They were the ones he wore yesterday, so I asked him if he wet his pants yesterday(you have to remember, here, that Alec is afraid of all toilets that are not the ones in our house). He told me no. The lie set me off...we've been trying to get through to both boys that we're always more angry when you lie than when you tell the truth. I started yelling, and by the time he was leaving, he was crying, I was crying...I did hug him goodbye, and told him I was sorry to be so angry, but I feel like the worst mother in the world. He had a bad day at school, however, and it's probably all my fault. I am at my wits end with him right now. He has always responded well to concrete instructions, but he's not listening AT ALL right now. That pushes some pretty big buttons with me. I don't know what to do. I need to come up with some way of dealing with him right now, because I'm so very, very tired of yelling.
This is my dose of reality for the day. I just needed to get it out. Tomorrow will be better.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
5 Must Haves...Talia
Talia was tagged by Kimmy....this picture represents her 5 "must haves". It really could be classified under the 5 "B's"...Blankie, Binkie, Bear, Bella, and a Baby. These are the things she has to have before she will go to sleep most nights. The blankie and binkie are the dealbreakers, though...it's trauma when we don't have them. Although I know she's at that age when I should start taking her binkie from her, she's my last, and when she's upset, she needs it. I just can't make myself take it from her yet.
Lately however, she's had a 6th must have...her Mommy. I've worked an intense schedule the last couple of weeks, with many of my days clustered into a short span. On Sunday night I got called off...briefly. I got called back in rather quickly, but apparently my poor little daughter never recovered, and spent the rest of the night crying for mommy.
I feel like there's not enough time to get everything done anymore...for the last 4 months or so, I've been getting called off from work at least 1 shift a pay period. I didn't realize how much time that extra day gave me. Now that we're busy again, and the opportunity for call off will be less available, I'm having trouble figuring out how to get everything I want to done.
Ahh...my princess needs her mommy....more later.
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