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Monday, June 23, 2008

Unsatisfied and Depressed...

So, I've had a rough time since my last post. Although that baby I posted about is doing great, there have been some other things crop up at work....I had planned to do a little post on Faith, but right now I'm running a little bit low.

So, last Thursday night, when I worked, we got a set of 23 week twins. It was the WORST resuscitation of micropreemies I have ever attended where the babies survived to make it into the NICU. Everything seemed to be stacked against us and the babies. The baby that I worked on ended up dying later that day, after I had come home. I keep running it over and over in my brain, and I KNOW that we did everything right, everything we could for those babies. And I try to remember that maybe he needed to come down and get his body really quick, then was needed back up in heaven. It just seems like lately I've seen so much death, and my heart breaks every time. I'm grumpy and hormonal and so very, very emotionally tired.

3 comments:

min said...

love ya jen... what you do is so important. don't feel down for too long. keep thinking "faith"...

Six-Pack Momma said...

It takes someone very special to do what you do. I am so glad Heavenly Father has given us the medical technology and the people who make it all possible. You do many great things, every day!

Kristen said...

I know how you feel. Taking care of some of these babies who have been there forever and not progressing I wonder what we are doing sometimes. But, then going to work yesterday and seeing 3 beautiful babies going home with their good families does help.