So, I've had a rough time since my last post. Although that baby I posted about is doing great, there have been some other things crop up at work....I had planned to do a little post on Faith, but right now I'm running a little bit low.
So, last Thursday night, when I worked, we got a set of 23 week twins. It was the WORST resuscitation of micropreemies I have ever attended where the babies survived to make it into the NICU. Everything seemed to be stacked against us and the babies. The baby that I worked on ended up dying later that day, after I had come home. I keep running it over and over in my brain, and I KNOW that we did everything right, everything we could for those babies. And I try to remember that maybe he needed to come down and get his body really quick, then was needed back up in heaven. It just seems like lately I've seen so much death, and my heart breaks every time. I'm grumpy and hormonal and so very, very emotionally tired.