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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Comment Moderation

So, It's been bugging me. I while back, I posted a "purging" post. I posted it for 2 reasons. 1--because I knew that if I typed my thoughts down, and let them out to the "universe" (so to speak), I would feel better. I've learned that when I get toxic emotions like that, the only way to let them go is to either talk them out or write them down. So, I wrote them down. No kidding, 10 minutes after I typed that post, I felt like a weight was off my shoulders. I felt much better, and all those emotions were GONE. I just needed to get them out, and as I was at work, this was my only real option. So, I really, really thought I had made it PERFECTLY clear that this post was all about ME. MY internal emotions and perspectives. I WAS NOT accusing anyone, blaming anyone, mad at anyone, etc. The entire post was just about my internal perspective about the way I'VE chosen to live MY life, and how sometimes those choices make me feel a bit lonely. Mostly, I don't have that problem. I'm very lucky to have a husband who is also my VERY BEST FRIEND. We share many interests, and quite honestly, if I've got time, I almost always want to be doing something with him (except for scrapbooking, and I've got my mom, SIL, and friends to do that with). I was just having a stressful, hormonal week, and hormones mess with my emotions. So, I purged, and I was better.

The 2nd reason I posted it, online, for all to see...I know I can't be the only person who feels this ways sometimes. I always feel guilty when these emotions pop up, because I'm well aware of how blessed I am. So, I wanted everyone else out there to know...these emotions happen. It's OK. You're not alone.

I really planned to make the post, and forget about it (until I print it for my journal). I never planned to even look at the comments, I had put it so far behind me after writing it. However, my husband insisted I read the comments, and I've been bothered ever since. One anonymous comment, took my post completely out of context, and it irritated me. I haven't been able to let it go. I allow anonymous comments so that my wonderful family, who don't have blogger sign-ons, can comment if they wish. However, since the comment was made, I've decided that the best way to handle stuff like that is to moderate my comments. I'm sorry for any inconvenience this causes anyone, but it's for my sanity and peace of mind.

Once again, I'm well aware of all the things the Lord has blessed me with.


Brian and Staci Staples said...

Well, I don't know what kind of 'Friends' can't understand a little venting now and then. You can't tell me that every single person in the world doesn't have a down day. And since I too work and have a family I know that although I want to spend every minute with my family there are times that you need to step away and find yourself again. Stepping away only makes you love and appreciate what you have more. I also am one of the outside girls that work and I too feel the invisible line between the stay at home mom's and the working mom's. Don't let someone else's post ruin your day...after all...they may just need to vent!

Natalie said...

Hey Jen,

I just wanted to tell you that you are right!....everyone feels that way sometimes - even more so since we're girls! The main point is that your post was meant for YOU because this is YOUR blog. I say do what you what you need to...document the things YOU want to remember. If it helped you by expressing those feelings...then your blog served its purpose. Keep being YOU...that's what matters.

You are a great person with many blessings. Take care of yourself...and enjoy every nap you take!! :)

Anonymous said...

hey you, purging is good for the soul!! don't get down on yourself for feelings that everyone has, and good on you for being the very best that you can be. you are a great mom, a loving wife and a awesome co-worker. keep on smiling:)