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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Guilt and Motherhood...

These two things sometimes go hand in hand, I guess. I'm having a rough day reconciling my guilt....

As most everyone who visits my blog knows, it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO VERY FREEZING COLD today. (well, technically yesterday, but I'm at work and haven't gone to sleep yet, so it's still today for me) It was the boy's first day back, and I planned on taking them to school...and it's a good thing too, because they were so SLOW!. I dropped them at school, went about my morning business. As I left for work, it was snowing...hard...couple of inches already on the ground...temp was about 20 degrees. I had the stray thought, "I should call (insert name of---one of my buddies who choose to be better mother's than me and stay home with their kids---here) and ask them to pick up my kids. After all, even though they both had on snow clothes, boots, and gloves, they both forgot their hats today, and their gloves are probably wet by now. But I was driving in the snow, and I forgot. Guilt. Especially since Alec's bad cough of this morning has turned into "he's got a fever, and he's not breathing that great, and he's got a bad croup cough." WONDERFUL. I really feel like a terrible mother right now. Logically, I know that's not true. But my baby boy is sick, I'm here at work, worrying about his breathing from 5 miles away.

It's hard to be a mom.

2 comments:

TiGi said...

Cut yourself some slack, hon. All mothers feel guilt. It slips in with that first cry and...it never goes away. Not even in thirty years. But you're doing wonderful. Whether you're a stay at home mom or not you have those same thoughts running rampant through your mind. In the end, if your happy your kids are happy and you give them much more than being at their elbow when their sick ever could.

Min said...

You are a good mom! At least you made sure they were dressed appropriately.. Lynn was wearing a zebra mini skirt, no socks and shiny red ballet flats.. there was no convincing her otherwise and Hailey carried her to the crosswalk.. you can call me anytime!